friendship · wedding

Sarah’s wedding. 

​Dear Katie,  

The day finally arrived for Aaron and Sarah to get married. There was some beautiful touches, all of which you would have loved. 

Sarah looked absolutely beautiful like a princess. 

Sarah put some beautiful pictures of you out on the table, and raised some money for the air ambulance. 

Lily and I snuck alcohol in of course,  and we were the giddiest and lily decided to wash her feet in the sink of the toilets. 

The final bit which was lovely, was all of a sudden towards the end the DJ played the dirty dancing song.. just like at the end of your wedding.  Sarah and I looked at each other and went ‘sharpie’.. I just knew you were there then.  


friendship · phobias

Kill that spider! 

Dear Katie,  

I have learnt that living on your own you get to accomplish a few grown up things such as paying bills, trying out recipes, fixing things, but most importantly getting rid of spiders. As you know pop tart,  I hate spiders and you would always be my princess in shining armour and kill any spider I came across. 

I would normal just leave spiders,  but the spiders in my flat recently have been huge? And I definitely can’t sleep knowing these creatures are in my flat.

Yesterday I went to go and brush my teeth and there it was…. 

How friggin’ huge is this!! Needless to say I will not be using that toothbrush again.  

 It then ran fast up the wall and it headed towards me.. I was shaking with nerves but I knew I had to man up. I went back into the bathroom with some febreeze and my cosmopolitan magazine and killed it… (after a few attempts) and then couldn’t sleep throughout the night. Let’s hope I don’t get any more. 


fashion · friendship · grief · shoes

Do they not know! #teacher life

Dear Katie,  

I was ‘on call’ today at school which basically that meant that I am to sort out the naughty kids. Well.. I was on call to a student and we played a lovely game of cat and mouse around the school.

I was wearing my pink Kurt geiger shoes and went all on the field and into the woods looking for this child… does he not know that I put my kurt geiger shoes at risk! 

You’ll be pleased to know there was no harming of the shoes! 


disney · friendship · grief

“Well… she’s ruined Disney for me.” 

Dear Katie,  

It has been a year today that it was your funeral. This is weird to say, but it was the most perfect funeral for you. I of course was dreading it  (and not just because I had a cheeky moment and snog with your cousin  at ellie’s birthday party and he would obviously be there) but because it was closure that you actually weren’t with us anymore. 

Is it also weird to talk about favourites at a funeral? Maybe I mean the moments that really reflected you.. 

1. Your bright pink Vivienne Westwood heart shoes were the main focus point.

2. You came into the church with the little mermaid’s ‘under the sea’ playing.

3. The priests attempt of saying your “shat it you muppet” was actually hilarious. 

4. After we had left the crematorium and beauty and the beasts ‘tale as old as time’ was playing, Emma went “well.. she’s ruined Disney hasnt she!” 

When I drove into school today there was a Robin that greeted me that also wouldn’t move from the road. I took it as a sign you came to say hi 🙂 

Miss you enormously pop tart. Come visit again. 


disney · Film · friendship · grief · Uncategorized

Winnie the Pooh.

Dear Katie,

They are going to make a new film about Christopher Robin and Winnie the Pooh. I teared up in the trailer already.


Do you remember that time it was your maybe like 13th birthday and you had a birthday party around your house. We all gathered in your living room and went to secretly watch Jaws whilst the adults probably drank wine in the kitchen. Anyway, I remember whenever your dad kept coming in you would switch it over to Winnie the Pooh because we weren’t old enough to watch Jaws. Especially Ellie… it was so funny because your parents and friends all knew what was happening!!! Haha good times poptart!


dating · friendship · grief · relationships · Uncategorized · University

Is it fate?

Dear Katie,

Hello, It’s been  a while poptart. Don’t worry I still think of you everyday, I’ve just been crazy busy!

So, my uni love  got in contact recently. By uni love, I mean the guy I sort of dated on and off for three years, and by that I mean whenever we saw each other would snog each others face off… what a lovely way to say that! We left uni on the fact that we were going to meet up the next day after graduation ball where we decided we really liked each other. BUT he stood me up! He said his phone ran out of charge so he missed our meeting, and because he was in his work experience year in Houses of Parliament, it meant he didn’t have time to see me as he had to catch his train. I remember being really upset because well, it was third year and we both confessed we actually really liked each other! Whenever I saw him, I would always flock to him like a little sheep.  But I always held a little flame for him, but you know knew nothing would ever happen because he lived in Sunderland or Cornwall and the fact he’s a rubbish texter back all added in.


So We’d text a few times recently because he was the Lib Dem MP for Sunderland Hope and something and they’d put someone in his place on TV on the election night who had Paul’s hair and I shared this with him and had a little catch up. Then out of the blue.. Paul text me saying he was coming to Oxford and asked if we could meet up for coffee. I all of a sudden got the biggest butterflies and went very girly! (I really hope he doesn’t see this… that would be embarassing!)

It had been 7 years since I saw him. Loads of thoughts were going round my head.. is it going to be awkward, will we discuss what happened at uni between us, will we have a cheeky kiss, will he even like me in that way, what if he has a girlfriend… all these things! I realised from a “Let’s catch up” text to thinking all this stuff I just need to calm. down.

My mum was very excited about it…. she even face timed me from New Zealand!

So we met at the train station where it was so lovely to see him! It wasn’t awkward at all, and I showed him the sights of Oxford and it was really lovely. We caught up about old friends and uni times. It actually turns out he’s been offered a job in the town where I live!!!! From working in Sunderland all the way to Abingdon where I live!! I don’t know about you, but part of me thinks….Is this fate? Who knows! Ooh and another thing, we went for noodles and then after had fortune cookies. His read that he was going to go on a journey with a girl.

We wrapped up our evening with him offering to show me round houses of parliament,  (How Bridget Jones am I going to be in there.. I have to  be on my best behaviour!) a kiss on the cheek and a text from him saying he had an ace day and that we should go for a drink in one of the lovely pubs in Abingdon one day. Which I think is a very positive outcome.

So, who knows. *cringe alert* When I first saw Paul at uni, we were heading in the club for a night out and I saw him and thought “I must talk to him.” A drunken “Hello” when I saw him in the joint bathroomy- hand washy- area has now led to this and a uni background with him.

I’ll keep you updated, but… yeah… I’m pretty happy.


friendship · grief

It’s been a year….

Dear Katie,  

It’s been a year today since you were taken away from us.  I actually still can’t believe it you know. 

I just wanted to say that although you’re not with us anymore I’m never not going to forget you. I’m never not going to stop calling you my best friend and all that because you’re still a part of my life pop tart and you always will be. I hope you come visit me Patrick swayze ghost style soon.  That would be nice. 

I love and miss you every day pop tart.  xxxxxxxx