Vegas baby!!!

Dear Katie,  

The time is here. I am going to see Helen melon and go to Vegas!  I’m so excited..aaaand I’m taking my Kurt giegers out! It’s going to be so much fun! 

I hope you’ll come and party with helen and I! 



Well I did it… Tackled a phobia

Dear Katie,

It’s been a while, and I would firstly like to catch up with you for a few things… Ross said he loved me!! Woop woop! I mean, I said it first, but still!! Woop woop.. and on Valentines day! We are also planning a little Europe tour in the summer.. I’m so excited!!

Anyway.. I did it! I signed up and donated blood! Can you believe it! I still can’t. *Just for those people reading, I have a HUGE phobia of needles* Katie was a blood donor, and as I’m currently on lent, I wanted to give more and thought that this would be a good way of going about it.

Ross was working on Valentines day, so I thought in the evening instead of being on my own, I will go and donate. I did it 2 days after I signed up, and I thought that if I don’t do it then, I’m going to be too much of a chicken to do it so nipped it in the bud.

Here’s how it went….

I went half an hour before because I needed to mentally prepare myself. Dad was giving me prep talks and he said to keep saying to them things like “Tell them it’s your first time etc” So after reading the very important information you get called to get your finger prick done.

This was in my opinion the most painful part! I was silently freaking out, and after she took some of my blood and tested it, she said “Okay you’re ready.” Go and wait around the corner to donate. Katie at this point I WAS FREAKING OUT! I couldn’t keep still, I was playing with my bag, I wouldn’t look at the people giving blood! But what spurred me on, was of course you  and where the drinks were there was a tablecloth that kids had drawn on with things saying “Thank you for my blood transfusion.. :)” and that just made me want to go for it.

The nurse called me over, and she could tell I was incredibly nervous.. she was great though. She calmed me right down, and looking back I realised how pathetic I was. I firstly started crying when she was wiping my arm, (!) saying things like “You don’t have to do this if you don’t want to.” After she had done she handed me this laminated paper that had exercises.. (did you know that if you squeeze your bum it lowers your blood pressure) and I was clinging onto it for dear life, and she went “Okay, have we read it, shall I take it off you?” I shook my head and she left it with me haha!

We then had a back and forth, of me going.. “Hold on a second..” Then I cried some more, then she put the needle in.. it didn’t hurt at all and when the nurses came to distract me, I could hardly tell it was there, so it was a big build up for nothing! I cried when it was finished because I was so proud of myself!


At the tea table, I felt a little light headed, and the nurse went “Okay love, lets get you down here.” And in front of EVERYONE I had to lie down on the floor on an inflatable bed whilst the main nurse came and fanned me! How embarrassing! After 15 minutes of being fanned and sorting myself out I was able to go back to the tea table where new people were and were asking how I was! I was just like, “It’s my first time!”

I’m super proud of myself, and I know you’d be proud of me too poptart. I got sent a text that said my blood is B+ and that it was sent to Birmingham University hospital which made me feel amazing! Imagine if people who are trying to find cures are using my blood, or someone who desperately need my blood can get it!  I’ve booked in for my next one already! I am of course still terrified but I feel amazing for doing it.

Here I am, after my donation.. you can see my teary eyes….

Love and Miss you xxxxx



Dear Katie,

I went to see the new Disney film Coco.  Firstly, it was Disney so of course I was going to go. Secondly, it was 8set In South America, so the music is going to be ah-mazing! So, it’s about a boy called Miguel who needs Music in his life and his family bans it due to heartbreak over a musician years ago. On the day of the dead, he gets transported to his ancestors in their world. He meets this one person who is being forgotten about and soon he will disappear into thin air. I shan’t tell you the rest, (I’m sure you snuck into a cinema and saw it whilst trying to steal a Fanta frozen… hey do you remember that time me, you and Sarah went to the cinema to go and see a very boyish kind of film. We were the only girls there. Sarah only came because she wanted a Fanta frozen and I remember you going out loud “Oooh Charlotte… we love a bit of action don’t we!” haha.. Anyway…)  but during the film, I thought of a few things.

I tried to imagine what it would be like where you were.  *Sidenote* I had a dream about you the other day, where me, you and Sarah were at a carnival, and we were all laughing. You were in ghost form, but Sarah and I knew you were there, because  we then had a massive popcorn fight. Lily also said that she had a dream about you too.. she said that we were all together and you looked lovely in your ponytail and we were all laughing. So I like to think you are visiting us in our dreams. Anyway, back to where we were.. I think you’re having a great time and that I can imagine you are running your own business or something, and spying on us all. If you are, do you like Ross? Do you have to pass through us, is it like Ghost?

Another thing, the main theme of the film was family and remembering loved ones. There got to a point where this happened….


At which point I absolutely balled my eyes out. And had this reaction…. (from 2 minutes in)


I was emotional. In the song, it says ‘I sing a secret song to you each night we are apart..’ Well I don’t sing to you, but I do every night go “Goodnight poptart” Apart from when Ross stays over. I said it once, because it was autopilot, and Mum was staying over and she went “What you on about Charlotte” ,  So it’s just a secret goodnight between us otherwise I reckon Ross would think I’m already more bonkers than he think I probably am already!

That’s all. I miss you, I will always remember you.

Love love.





It’s a new year.

Dear Katie,  

Well it’s another new year. Looking back on my resolutions from last year, I die not do park runs every week, (albeit, i did go running more often) and I did not join a choir or something! 

However I did find a lovely man, and not as I put a dickhead. Haha.

I’m not going to make any resolution’s this year, I’m just going to see what happens. I think this will be a good year… I’m bloody due it! 

It was ross’s birthday this weekend so I gave him a birthday weekend. I took him to some of the markets and then up the shard. It is amazing at night time…

It was gorgeous. And another great thing is that in the toilets, you can pee out to London…

I also realised how cringe/cute I am in a relationship when I was wrapping ross”s presents. I gave him a tag which reflected his presents… so a football mug..

I got him some chocolate…

A car book.. 
And a few others.. how cute/cringe/hilarious. 

Ah I wish I could tell you all thus in real life.I saw a Robin hang around when I parks up with him. I’d like to think it was you poptart.

Miss you xxxx 

I think I found my Mark Darcy.

Dear Katie,  

It was our school musical last week, and Ross came to watch! He even missed the football to come and see! 

I met him outside,  and he was wearing a Christmas jumper with a reindeer on. It was then I thought how Bridget Jones!  

He then got me all this stuff for chistmas….

What a lucky girl I am! 

Ps I hope you came to watch our school musical of Peter pan. 


A hester hen came to stay..

Dear Katie,  

One of your besties-catherine from uni came to stay with me last week. It was so lovely to see her. We ended up mist of the evening talking about you and how it’s so nice to talk to each other because we understand what we’re both going through. We also drank a bottle of wine and got a bit pissed! There’s that for a Monday evening.  

We then watched sex and the city talked about boys and sex stuff and went to bed with a promise to meet up more often. 

I bet you were with us.. it felt like you were. 

Miss you.



Dear Katie,  

I’ve been meeting ross’s friends and family. 

I went to my first football match the other day. It was so much fun. Football punters can be so mean to the ref yelling things like “you don’t know what you’re doing!” And those kind of things. It was really fun though.

That weekend, ross then booked tickets for us to go to stonehenge at sunset. It was so romantic and thoughtful and gorgeous! He’s definitely a keeper! 

Look how gorgeous! 

Anyway. I’m really missing telling you about him. I just hope you can see us together and approve. I think you would! 

Miss you xxx 

I have a boyfriend!!!

Dear Katie,  

It’s official. Ross asked me to be his girlfriend 🙂 🙂 🙂 

He asked me very casually and it felt really right. I’m sure you would approve. 

Miss you very much